Wednesday, December 9, 2009

End of semester insanity

I can't believe that the semester is almost over. And I also can't believe how much random stuff that I've done, been through, and seen this semester. Peach State Opera, Atlanta Opera, taking a serious look at how close I let people get, it's all been either really great or really horrible. So, here is a list of what I've come to know.

Lessons learned:
-You don't have to say yes to everything
-You can't help other people until you can help yourself sufficiently
-Frenemies are usually a lot closer to you than you think
-DO NOT date gay men, no matter how hot they are (but bisexuality is real.)
-Famous people are just normal people that are famous.
-Have confidence and believe in the fantasy of what you want to be, and soon it might be a reality (thank you, Lady Gaga)

One more semester at GSU and I'll be finished. This grad school process is getting me down, but if I don't make all the deadlines or don't get in, I'm in a city with good friends and can still do what I love with time off. Either way, I'm ready to get this journey started. And I'm excited about it.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

It's called "acting" for a reason.

I realize that in the career I want to pursue, which is singing opera, that a lot of times we play out of this world characters in strange and bizarre situations. Not everyone that falls in love with someone that doesn't value their love and has the need to stab them with a knife at the end of a huge angry duet. The same goes for when you have a horrible case of consumption and on your deathbed, you desperately need to sing high C's to express the pain and agony of death. But even so, those characters are at least SLIGHTLY relatable. Zerbina from La Serva Padrona, not so much...

Zerbina is a maid who has been this old doctor's ward for about 5 years, and when he decides that he's had it with her attitude and he wants to give her away, she schemes a plan to make him want to marry her so she can stay with him. But she doesn't love him, really.... I don't think? I haven't even quite figured that out yet. She doesn't really seem to be in love with him, she just likes the status of their weird father-and-not-daughter bickering.

One aspect I can't really relate with is how pushy she is with this man that is supposed to be "in-charge" of her. It's really funny because she is a lower status than him and pushes him around like it's not a big deal. But I can't think of anything relatable in my life that is like that. I like to use sarcasm on people that I date to just mess with them, but I'm never serious about. And this character is. She essentially tells him that he needs to listen to her because she is really in charge of the house and not him. I'm thinking, "Shut up, woman! He's gonna smack your facccccccce!"

But this never happens unfortunately. She just schemes up and plan that actually DOES work, and he decides to marry her after she dresses up their servant as a Bulgarian army captain...heh. It is pretty funny though. I just can't relate to where she is coming from. It didn't help when the director mentioned that part of the issue of this opera is men treating women as possessions. Dr. Pandolfo does try and essentially give her away because she gets in his hair too much. So THEN maybe she IS asserting herself as a dominant female character??? Hm. Possibly? Even at the end of the production, they decide to get married but they aren't really sure if they are "in" love. But they do love each other in that "I hate you, but don't leave me" way. They need each other. It's the "My Fair Lady" complex! The Pygmalion effect!!! I guess he did help mold her into a smart woman.

Maybe she isn't impossible to relate to then. It's also difficult being a 20-something girl raised in the 20th/21st century and trying to act like a more prudish hen-pecking female. Apparently, I walk like I've worn pants my entire life. Which I have. Whoops? I have to "keep my legs together"... Even when I'm wearing a skirt, I'm STILL not girly enough! It's also a style of acting that I'm not familiar with. Comedia d'ell arte! I don't think I've ever seen anything in that style. Hello youtube! I dont' know if youtube has any videos that have people acting in that style. But we shall see. The production in this month on Sepetember 26th in Macon, so I don't have a lot of time to really delve into a character. But I think with the information I've somehow shown light upon that I can make something out of her that I will enjoy performing.

Go Peach State Opera!

White : A blank page or canvas

"The Challenge: bring order to the whole through design, composition, tension, balance, light, and harmony."

This is the line that starts out one of my favorite musicals, "Sunday in the Park with George" by Stephen Sondheim. It begins with the stage completely blank, harsh, white light filling the space. George Seurat , one of my favorite artist, is only character onstage as he opens the musical with these lines. It's about the creation of one his most famous works, "Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte". I've always loved this opening and the visual progression to the stage as he adds more to his painting. By the end of the first act, the entire painting is recreated onstage before your eyes with people posing for his grand portrait of a lazy Sunday afternoon....

I feel as if this is what we all try to do with our lives in some way or the other. We start off with a mostly blank page for us to decide what we will add. What direction do we want to take with our lives? What artistic influences will change our perspective and make us want to paint our lives to be more colorful or exciting or even just erase everything we had created and want to start over?

I am using this an outlet for my thoughts and opinions on everything that crosses my mind because.... I have a LOT on my mind.

This is my last year at my undergrad and I want to use this to also keep track of all the insanity that I can't believe is my life sometimes. I also will try and keep a theme with my entries, but I can't promise anything.

I can only hope that I am on my way to creating something that I will want to look back upon and be proud of.